Random Spill #002

Too many days I wake up and go to sleep, in this country, feeling as though I am living on the world’s end.  It’s like America is becoming everything that the book of Revelations speaks about. And honestly, it haunts the hell out of me.  I observe so many things in people and it seems as though they - and I too - have complete disregard for each other.  There is no respect for anyone or anything anymore (if there ever was).  People are trying too hard to be without just being.  And with the ever-rising dependence on technology, people coming together to effectively discuss human taboos seem dead.  It is as if we are walking detached; as if our concerns and worries aren’t  those of everyone else.  

No, the United States of America is by no means a perfect place to live; I’m sure no country is.  And I wonder if the things I witness in my everyday life is happening everywhere.  I don’t think so, but it is hard to say, especially since the world is becoming more homogenized by the day.  I do hope, however, that the rest of the world is not adopting those values of America.  No, I don’t believe everything we do here is wrong; but, people go off what they see from the outside and how we portray ourselves to outsiders is not cool.  We are absolutely desensitizing the minds of people.  

I often wonder where on this Earth, as a black man, I can go, speak my native language, coexist with semi-familiar customs, and dream without judgment.  Once again, it’s hard to say. I have yet to hear of this Earthly haven for the black human because if it were real, I’m sure we would all be there.  But maybe this place does exist and in the most unlikely place that we are not suppose to know about.  It would not surprise me if history would not want me to know of a place.  

IDK. I’m need to work at being more optimistic.  But at the same time, I’m a realist; and I see the world for what it is, not what it could be.  The world has been living too long to not know the problems that hinder humanity from thriving.  But on the same hand there are only a handful of people that run the world and most of them are ego-driven men that don’t know how to deal with power.  IDK. All I know is that I can be a greater contributor to society by putting a greater effort at becoming a greater me.